Getting My Bell Rung

It's been a while since my last hub and so much has happened since then. I went to see a pastor friend that prayed for me and did a deliverance. That day was Good Friday. The day the Lord gave His life for me and I after I was prayed for went to stay with a friend for the night. I let my guard down and took some drugs that day that was to be to honor the Lord and gain freedom going into Easter. I felt so bad the next day and of course the intensity of warfare increased and rightly so because I have been on the fence and not totally committed to God. I would drink beers almost every day and smoke as well. These are not cardinal sins but they are not edifying anything but the flesh which is not what I am called to do. Things are really going well at work, some really good things. I am under attack like never before and I know that God is with me and that I have a hope and a future and he showed me on the way into the office today the Rocky Balboa imagery of Rocky getting his head beaten to a pulp, the only difference Is I saw myself fighting a spiritual battle and instead of calling our to "Adrian" I was calling Out to Jesus, and God, My manager, cut man and adviser was there as well.  I realize I have been doing things quite wrong lately and the seriousness of spiritual warfare and all it entails is truly not something to be disrespected. It's time to really get serious about the actual battle and lean not on my own understanding and seek deliverance from men, as that is NOT what God want in my case. My entire walk with God has been one of waiting and patience and always at what seems to be the last minute He comes through in the way that only God comes through. I am going to get through this by the Grace of God and by His hand will I be delivered. Then I will be able to comfort and console the others that suffer at the hands of the beast. It is my mission to over come as the Lord has over come and be able to tell about that victory and encourage others who suffer through terrible trials of various types. The seriousness and intensity of the evil attacks perpetrated upon me and the people and lands of the earth is worse today than at anytime in the history of mankind. This tells my spirit that the Lord may be back sooner than most may think, it says in His word that He will come like a thief in the night, that we should watch and pray. I know this saga will get better and not too much longer will it be before I can shout from the roof tops that God and Him alone set me free and that the Ministry of Defense has it's first member and the fight to free people that are possessed, oppressed, tormented, harassed, afflicted, manipulated and suffering can get some peace and encouragement and real deliverance that comes from the Lord and it will cost them nothing as the Lord did not charge a fee for service. The Lord is blessing me at work in my career and that will be the foundation for the service to Him in helping set captives like me free and send the enemy packing.